(strange, how hard it rains) [19 Mar 2006|06:47am] [ mood | creative ] [ music | no doubt-six feet under ] Sometimes I am not so smart... and my name is not audrey

(2 drops | strange, how hard it rains) OOOOOOOOOHHHHH!!!!!!! [30 Oct 2005|03:39am] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | fall out boy-dance, dance ] Things that are wonderful or not so wonderful baking cakes getting a phone call at 3:30 in the morning when you almost have fall asleep having to change your plans once again cause your job screwed up your days off again lilies snow books (i'm a big supporter of that one) art that funny feeling when you have to sneeze and it doesn't happen starburst wrapper jewelry DIET DR. PEPPER kit-kats doctors not knowing why you feel like crap all the time. green pens cigarettes writing nice smelling things Leave your thoughts!!!!!!!

(strange, how hard it rains) [09 Oct 2005|01:42am] I am totally enjoying the rain it can say for a couple of days

(1 drop | strange, how hard it rains) [31 Aug 2005|05:44am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | mcr-to the end ] it was a funny looking chunky brownie i don't think that is healthly

(1 drop | strange, how hard it rains) DORK [07 Aug 2005|12:51am] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | Jason Mraz-Song For A Friend ] I wanted to be in New Jersey But I ended up in Philadelphia I don't know how I did it but I did other then that it was a nice trip

(1 drop | strange, how hard it rains) [26 Jul 2005|02:39am] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | BUZZING ] If your really cool or just feel like helping me out you should reply with an ending to this sentence LETS MAKE IT A POINT TO..... IT NEEDS AN ENDING SO HELP IT OUT YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO

(2 drops | strange, how hard it rains) [10 Jul 2005|07:38am] ITS MY BIRTHDAY GO ME!!!!!!!! ok so that was enough excitment for the whole day. finally 21 and its all down hill from here. nap time call if you want or something 860-501-5350

(strange, how hard it rains) to pass the time [02 Jul 2005|02:23am] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | jason mraz-doubling back ] Had a really shitty week it seemed. Nothing want to go right. Been working alot of hours and the jobs but its worth it casue I get to go on a road trip in a couple of weeks. Trying to think of places that we should stop at on our trip. my birthday is in nine days and I still haven't thought of anyhtign to do or anything that I really want. Michelle and I thought a scavenger hunt would be fun but I dont know if we are really going ot do it. Debating on whether or not I should move to Michigan. Got to go to sleep now becaue I have to go to work in a couple of hours will probably post more later tonight if I don't forget.

(strange, how hard it rains) [25 May 2005|12:30pm] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | holly's cookie crunching mouth ] arghh my job owes me for eight hours of pay and I don't know when I'm going to get it. Now I must go drive holly around the town so she can do all her stuff before she has to go to work. what would youo do if you know something that could change things? I personally think maybe I wouldn't say anything? How about you?

(2 drops | strange, how hard it rains) holy shit batman [23 May 2005|11:58am] [ mood | content ] [ music | holly's pregnant feet pounding the floor ] i was so looking at things from a while ago and find this and was like HOLY SHIT BATMAN hence the subject line I'm seriously thinking about going to back to Vermont I decided to come back to Connecticut because I though it was the thing to do. I already had friends here and it just seemed to me to be the easiest thing to do. Cause that me always trying to find the easy way out of a problem or situation. But I think about it now and a part of me feels like my friends here don't even care if I exist or not they were probably better off without me but then again isn't everyone. The other thing would be that I realize that I met some really awesome people in Vermont that were different then people that you find around this area. I miss them alot and I wish that I was going back to see them. Right now the my life is crappy. I have no car and no job and I can't really find a new job until I get my car fixed. I so badly want to have a sense of independence but it will never happen. I seem to depend alot not financially but for mental sustainabilty (I don't know if that makes any sense to people). Part of me wonders if this dependence stops me from doing the things that I really think I want to do because I seem a sort of approval from the people that I know. Trust is a big issue always has been, always will be. I find it really hard to trust people. I think thats becasue I fear getting hurt. if you betray trust and then what is left? Nothingness. For those that I trust with my life I know that they feel the same way too. Thats a good thing. But then there are people that you trust but at thye same time you have the feeling that you shouldn't trust them because it can only cause a problem in the end or something like that. I don't know what to do about that so I don't really do anything. It's like I really want to trust YOU and I like having you around because your an awesome person to know but how can I know that you mean the things that you are saying. It drives me crazy!!!! I'm going to stop now because I wrote alot more then I thought I would. And all this thinking makes me angry and violent and I don't want to be violent. I might have to get out the butterknife (i really don't mean it but I wanted to see if I could include into in this). Things that have changed since then are 1) I have a car that I love more then life itself 2) I also have a job while actually I have two jobs so that makes me tens times cooler not really but hey a Girl can dream can't she Peace out ( for the uber cool Holly Ann )

(1 drop | strange, how hard it rains) [23 May 2005|02:23am] [ mood | crappy ] Going to holly's wonderful candle party today I hope it's a good time. things are going but other then that it's basically el sucky sucky truly one day I will learn real spanish I swear going to bed now I be real tired

(strange, how hard it rains) What can I say [26 Apr 2005|01:29pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | none cause holly is boring like that ] today looks to be another one of those totally awesome days that I wish I had gas so I could go to the beach or something. What has been going on lately? Nothing really except alot of work and school finish up my final paper for Anthropology and trying to make sure that I get all my online english class done (I hope I can). Took Holly to the hospital a million times yesterday so that they could check her glucose levels. I even had to take her there earlier today so she could set up her health insurance and we visited her mom, who just happens to be the coolest person in the world at one of the nurses stations in the hospital. No free time for me it seems like but maybe that will change (I sure hope so). Work at the ghetto mart as I like to refer to my job sometimes is going while I have been working alot of overnights and that sucks but the pay is good so no comments there. And the as holly would say eyecandy is nice to look at too. Saw Becky the other day I was glad because for a while I was unable to get ahold of her cause she moved. She gave me some new pictures of Jakob that are uber cute. God I love that kid he is so great and he likes the word cheese. It made me sad to see the dead swan today I was really bothered by it and I told holly that we should have a funeral for it but we didn't. I think I want to buy a hamster or something, I don't know I'll figure it out. I think I'm going to kill Jason. He is so fucking stupid sometimes I swear. Peace Out, cause the sun is shining and I'm going to try and find something to do before going to work at five.

(1 drop | strange, how hard it rains) I like chickens [09 Apr 2005|08:34am] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | the music from the tv commercial ] I should be at my home sleeping in my bed but no I'm at HL's house after working all night at that great place I work at. Coffee is my god right now and by the time i get done at her house I might have time to take a nap. Check yourself before you wreck yourself HAHAHAHA silly man holly looks like she is having difficultly with her filing cabinet plus she is threatening to beat her cat up. I wouldn't let that happen though becasaue cheese is the coolest cat in the world. Must remember to study for my anthropology test even though I don't really want to. Think I'm going to go to a different college next semester but I have not decided where I might want to go yet. ANY IDEAS? holly just tried to tell me that her filing cabinet was not going to bite me I think she is implying that she would like me to help her but I do not think that is going to happen. and supposedly i'm married but not really it's a weird story. Peace Bowen

(1 drop | strange, how hard it rains) is there anything new and exciting? [29 Mar 2005|02:54am] [ mood | nostalgic ] [ music | rain drops ] I would have to say not really to that question. I finally have an automobile that is going to last for longer then six weeks so that is kinda cool. Work sucks it seems to be the only thing I really do other then that there is nothing really interesting. tried to call steph in vermont but thre was no luck with that maybe I'll try again. And the other day I watched GB buy the ugliest pair of plaid bermuda shorts in the world. I should probably get ready to go now because I have to go pick Holly up for work since is her boyfriend's day off and he will not bring her. Plus I think I'll give Becky a call today and see if she needs any help packing becasue her and Roger got their own place(that super cool for them) now the only thing that should really stress her out is planning tha wedding of hers. Drop a line Peace out Bowen

(1 drop | strange, how hard it rains) 4 words [15 Mar 2005|02:58pm] [ mood | curious ] hearse and the cop

(1 drop | strange, how hard it rains) [24 Feb 2005|02:11am] [ mood | drained ] [ music | joe's rapping is still in my head ] i have a plan or maybe a though or something YOU GUYS(i hope you figure out who you people are)should ask me about it

(strange, how hard it rains) Tic Tock: it's the sound of tomorrow [21 Feb 2005|11:52pm] [ mood | guilty ] [ music | Drip Drip from the gutter outside ] in finding that I have some free time to myself I going to just write a little bit of stuff in here. Things have to change that can't just go on the way they are. I can take alot but the bottle starting to fill. maybe my emotions will be the death of me. for right now though they are the only thing I think I truly need. My friends are all leaving going their separate ways and I am just stuck with no place really to go right now. But I shouldn't seemed so down because it really doesn't mean a thing. Asshole how do you know if things are going to be great for me? I don't see you out there living life for me. There are thigs that i've dying to know and dying to try but I am to afraid to to find out about them and to afraid to try. People all around me saying you can not know unless you try but if you try and you fail at it won't you regret trying it at all? Sunshine would be nice instead of the pitch dark of the night I need to Breathe I need to Escape

(strange, how hard it rains) [21 Feb 2005|12:56am] [ mood | sore ] After being sick for the last two days going to work today was the last thing I really wanted to do but the time seemed to fly bye. Becky set a date for her wedding so thats really cool but now she is freaking out about all the details. Crazy girl that DonBrosky is

(strange, how hard it rains) Humor ME bet you a dollar you can't [11 Feb 2005|12:30am] [ mood | morose ] [ music | a perfect circle-Freedom of choice ] If you read this, even if I don't speak to you often, you must post a memory of me. It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened. Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you.

(2 drops | strange, how hard it rains) You Should Comment to show you really care [09 Feb 2005|12:24am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | midway 705-tacite ] ok since the last time I've post I've killed a deer and it was on accident plus I cried afterward. I think that s all i've done except for work and school god I'm boring OH AND IF ANY OF YOU KNOW ABOUT BIOLOGY you should get into touch with me somehow becasue I am science stupid it looks like.

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